I posted most of this on my "other" journal and then realized that I might as well put it here too.

I watched too much CNN last night. Or maybe not. I don't know but I just couldn't do it today. I just read the paper and looked at CNN.com. The (moving) images were too much for me today. I think about New Orleans all of the time. Maybe I'm praying, maybe I'm just horrified, I don't know. Part of me was feeling guilty before because I didn't have this intense of a reaction after the Tsunami in Indonesia. Is it because it's in my country? Is it the knowledge that this country that I live in has a government that is apparently incapable of taking care of its own? Especially if there is no "enemy" to rally against.

I'm horrified. I'm angry. And I almost started crying at work today.

Everything is insane there because I work in a weensy independent bookstore that basically carries itself by selling coursebooks to University students and the beginning of school rush is upon us. I'm literally surrounded in a massive chaos of books and they just keep flowing through the door. In some ways this is good...being busy.

I convinced my boss today to let me come in to work tomorrow on my day off and have him send a donation to the Red Cross in my name instead of paying me.

It was weird but talking to him about that was what almost set me off at work. And I have a very good relationship with my boss but he might be the most sarcastic person on the face of the planet and he doesn't know how to deal with emotions. He's a good person and does right by us but he's one of those people that just squirms at overt and sincere displays of emotion. But when he bought my coworker and me a drink after work today and patted my back on the way up the stairs I knew it was his way of saying all the things that he couldn't otherwise.

So I'm wiped out. I just spent the evening making dinner with my friend J and then we watched the first three epps of "Firefly." It's funny doing something like that with someone totally non-fannish, because I can't tell whether or not to hold back on my insane geekdom.

I have to add that I applaud Kanye West's bravery in saying what he did on NBC live the other day. I get a weird thrill when celebrities go subversive on live television and tell their truth despite the ramifications it might have for their (commercial) success (a la Michael Moore and Gael Garcia Bernal at the Oscars a couple years back).

*Also, I just looked at the pics of Solon and Haley's wedding on kiwitayro's journal and they were like a ray of sunshine. Although they also made me miss Spring and New England at large.